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Post by Laurentius on Dec 31, 2005 0:17:32 GMT -5
There is a book called "The Life of David Brainerd" written by Johnatan Edwards upon the death of Brainerd who was a missionary to the Indians in New Haven based on the journal David kept faithfully.. The book is organized in several parts. Part I deals with Brainerd's conversion and Part II starts with his thoughts after he was kicked out of college....btw, the book is free online! Let me share some excerpts as I read through it...
"Thursday, April 1, 1742. I seem to be declining, with respect to my life and warmth in divine things; had not so free access to God in prayer as usual of late. O that God would humble me deeply in the dust before him! I deserve hell every day, for not loving my Lord more, who has, I trust, loved me, and given himself for me; and every time I am enabled to exercise any grace renewedly, I am renewedly indebted to the God of all grace for special assistance. Where then is boasting? Surely it is excluded, when we think how we are dependent on God for the being and every act of grace. Oh, if ever I get to heaven, it will be because God will, and nothing else; for I never did any thing of myself, but get away from God! My soul will be astonished at the unsearchable riches of divine grace, when I arrive at the mansions, which the blessed Saviour is gone before to prepare."
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